After the morning after, 2
There is, indeed, always work. Very good, as proven once already, at distracting someone (Ango) from grief and heartbreak. There are way too many things to do, in the wake of the Decay of Angels’ case, for Ango to reflect on what might have set Dazai-kun’s off. He doesn’t have the time to think about how foolish he was, to think that they might rekindle their friendship. The wound runs too deep.
Paperwork, and mails, and meetings, and always, always, the same composed attitude. Keep yourself outright and unreachable; you’re not a person but a role. You’re the second in command of the special divison, and your name is not you but the incarnation of the Special Division. Even with Chief Taneda’s waking up, your actions still have put you in hot waters, but you can sit straight and look unaffected as you explain your perfectly rational reasoning and the justification of your action.
Chief Taneda is supporting your choices, which help, and there’s no arguing with the results. Of course, since they can’t accept a ends-justofy-the-means, or at least not when the means are lies (to them) and disobedience, this is not as strong an argument as it should be. But you’re acting as you always have, and so they have no way to conclude your actions were not the result of your professionalism, as always. Not the best interests of the organization, or the country, since that would be your personal judgment and you don’t have personal principles, or opinion, or the ability to judge above your station. You lean on your position, that leaves you already plenty of leeway to have such a judgment; of Chief Taneda’s indispnibility, leaving with mroe responsibitliy, that you showed yourself apt at using. You insist on the necessity to keep your act secrets from Fukichi, as if you didn’t also keep them secret from them. You keep your facade, and only Chief Taneka suspects that you might have used your soul, and heart and have acted on more than your job. You will have to explain yourself to him fully, and you won’t be able to rely on lies for that.
You stand straight. You do your job. Even in the midst of tinerrogations the aftermlath is still to be deealt with, and no one else can do it. So you keep on.
You don’t think about afterwards, when nothing will be there to distract you.